This past week has been a strange one. Our emotions have been up and down, we've giggled at things we shouldn't find funny, cried at things that seem inconsequential to anyone else; forgotten for a moment that we lost the baby only to be reminded a second later.
Each day though we've had brighter moments, handed to us by acts of kindness from family, friends and even strangers that introduce themselves for the first time.
Fish & Chip crisps found after a conversation waiting for my first scan. The multipack has been savoured, one bag at a time. We've sat together, sharing a snack, reliving our day, sharing our concerns, throwing away our worries with the empty packet.
The holiday that we now so desperately need, found at such a bargain price on the exact days we wanted, to a tropical island we never thought we could afford, after the agent promised us the perfect getaway.
The flat packed furniture for the new house that I went to order last night, thinking it would take weeks to arrive. I think the sales assistant sensed the importance of it. He searched in the warehouse and gave me furniture already reserved for someone else, taking it out to the car while I sheltered inside from the rain. It's now sitting in our hallway, ready to make our new house into a home. It reminded me that my very first post was about ordering a new wardrobe for my move into Sion's flat.
Not even a year has gone by and we've got used to living together, had a wonderful holiday, had the joy of falling pregnant and the devastation of a miscarriage. We're 3 weeks away from moving into our first family home The spare room will, I hope, become a nursery. There are people within this blogging community who I know are currently dealing with so much more pain and suffering than we have experienced and my heart goes out to them.
"Like success, failure is many things to many people. With Positive Mental Attitude, failure is a learning experience, a rung on the ladder, a plateau at which to get your thoughts in order and prepare to try again" - W. Clement Stone